"After a vicious beating that day, it was snowing heavily at night and I kneeled and screamed out to the sky and swore that if there was a day that I had an opportunity to be free and use a pen, I would write about my experience," Lu, 60, told AFP.

"I swore to use my pen to forever nail to the cross of shame those who destroyed me."

Lu, now a fit man whose apparent health belies the 11 years he served in solitary confinement, fulfilled his vow last year by publishing in Hong Kong a voluminous personal account of his participation in the Cultural Revolution.

The book: "Outcry from a Red Guard Imprisoned during the Cultural Revolution", tells of how Lu and a nation blinded by cult-like adulation for Mao Zedong allowed the horrors of the events from 1966 to 1976 occur.

Widely seen as China's most shameful and destructive period since the Communist Party swept to power in 1949, the Cultural Revolution was a mass movement Mao engineered to challenge his political rivals.

It was to unravel into a disaster which claimed millions of lives and pushed China to the brink of economic and social collapse.

As a fervent supporter of Mao and communism, Lu, then a marine engineering freshman in university in Wuhan city in China's central Hubei province, embraced the campaign.

"It was not a choice about whether or not to become a Red Guard -- everyone wanted to become a Red Guard," Lu said.

With the acquiescence of Mao, students and later workers, farmers and professional soldiers formed bands of Red Guards, whose objective was to punish those identified as belonging to the old political, cultural and intellectual guard.

"The Red Guard's were like God's army, they were Chairman Mao's soldiers," Lu said of the millions who joined the movement.

The Red Guards harassed, tortured and killed countless people, mainly in the first few years of the revolution before Mao finally brought them under control.

Lu estimated that in Hubei alone, 30,000 were killed, among them ordinary citizens beaten merely for their perceived disloyalty to the party as well as intra-factional fighting.

"The streets were raucous with marches and groups fighting, just like small battles -- it was really violent and intense," said Lu of the initial period when he was so supportive that he tried to acquire weapons for his classmates.

Lu said he never took part in the fighting, preferring instead to incite classmates to armed-struggle in his writings of "big-character posters" and publicly posted articles.

But his loyalty to the Mao and revolution began to fade after about a year when Lu realized that people were dying for no reason.

Among them he counted eight schoolmates and two teachers, whom, unable to stand the abuse, committed suicide -- one by slicing her belly open.

"I witnessed a father crying over his dead child after a street fight and I thought: 'Aren't we suppose to be like a family, why are we killing each other under Mao's flag?'."

Lu soon founded a magazine called Yangtze Review, which criticized many of the worst excesses of the Red Guards and Mao.

It was not long before authorities took action.

Lu was taken away and thrown down a mining well, where guards trying to force him to recant his criticism of Mao, beat him with metal pipes. He refused and two months later -- in July 1968 -- his 11-year stint in jail began.

That Lu even survived to write his book is a twist of fate nearly as irrational as how the movement plunged an entire nation into its campaign of violence, brutality and paranoia.

In 1977 -- after a decade in prison -- Lu was suddenly exonerated when just one day away from a final hearing that would have sealed his execution.

"The central government sent down a notice saying the case could not proceed," Lu said.

Lu was freed one year later but the stigma of the charges would affect him and his family for years.

"My parents were criticized everyday and my Mom wrote many self-criticisms," said Lu, now a retired businessmen who lives in Wuhan with his wife and has a 23-year old son in college.

For Lu, central to understanding the Cultural Revolution is to comprehend the effect communist propaganda had on the youth of his generation.

"For those of us who grew up mainly after 1949 ... we were taught only about revolution so when we read the works of propaganda literature we really wanted to be at the head, at the vanguard of revolutionary history," Lu said.

"We actually felt that we had not been born at the right time because we didn't have the chances to fight against our (anti-communist) enemies or the chance to become revolutionary heroes.

"At the time we thought we were really lucky to have such a campaign and we could finally fight for our dreams."

Lu said he did not feel regret when he reflects on his role as a Red Guard.

"I just feel ashamed. I should have been able to see the real purpose of the Cultural Revolution."

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